Back to the hospital today to start off this weeks appointments… it’s gonna be a busy, busy week.
I’m looking forward to seeing the nurses today though, I have lots to talk about because I’ve been #struggling since last week pretty damn hard. Week 5 is a toughie… I’m gonna talk about the not so nice side of this 😑 Honesty is 🔑 !
Last week on Thursday, I was put on some really heavy antibiotics to help heal the infected #radiation burns that produced last week 😭 (gross I know, #cancer isn’t pretty AT all) The antibiotics are literally the size of nickel and hard as shit to swallow. Taking them 3 times a day on top of the 2 different #chemo meds has literally put my body into the worst state. My body doesn’t handle meds well… doesn’t matter how much water I drink either, shit don’t help 😭 I’ve literally had to check my blood pressure every couple hours because of intense heart racing.. and now on top of that woke up yesterday with a possible #UTI… 🤬😭 Sooo most likely getting more damn meds for that today. 😔
The #medicalmenopause from the radiation / chemo has been super, super shit. I’m literally 34 and 110lbs right now, typically a very cold person and enjoy being that way 😁. It was snowing yesterday, and had to take both my girls who have the flu to the doctors and I couldn’t wear a damn coat. I was literally dieing of heat and steaming like I’d been in the oven 😭 Night is the worst, I can’t have blankets touch me anymore and my face turns red a lot… I feel frustrated and aggravated at the most stupidest shit… literally a spoon pissed me off, A SPOON 🤯
Now #heartburn / #indigestion. Man oh man… currently living on tums every time I eat or have to lay down. The pain is unreal… Have had since week 2 of treatments. Because the radiation fucks with your insides the way it does, it burns the second it hits the stomach. I opted out of their pills they prescribed for tums instead. I’m already taking enough garbage thanks 👌🏻
I’m not complaining, just hoping for others to see the honesty in this, and all sides of this cancer. Ladies, don’t skip the smear please, no one should ever have to go through this 🙏🏻♥️